Thursday, September 27, 2012

Overly Pampered

Looks like what I said in the previous post came true: “challenge is good, it gives us awareness of what we lack in”. This time, I am placed in a totally new situation which I have never experienced before – handling difficult people. I have never been good in managing relationships with others, what more with those who are in an “emotional” state.

To add on, I have never tasted real scolding as a result of committing huge mistakes. The lack of failure in the past has overshadowed my resistance towards hardship and all in all, moulded me into what I am today – overly pampered. After today’s incident, I just realised that I am extremely vulnerable when being put into a tough situation. I need to know how to manage my own disappointment and at the same time, manage the other party’s feelings and demands. As managing difficult people will be part of everyday life, I guess I need more practice to improve my defence mechanism and be seasonalised. Everybody has to start somewhere!

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

Suddenly I Realised …

I have all along remained in my own fairy-tale land where everything goes according to plan. Today is the “sudden” day when I “suddenly” face challenges that totally slapped me in the face. This is only when I realised that I am not all that superior in what I have been doing.

Challenge is good. It keeps us awake and aware of what we are lacking of. It allows us to understand ourselves better, of what we are capable and what we are not. For my situation, I had to put the blame on my own disgusting habit of finishing work last minute. If it was not for the lack of time, things would have been much better as I would have much more time to prepare for the worst.

Nonetheless, rather than complaining and feeling gloomy about the despair these challenges bring about, I decided to take an initiative to plan for my next action, and improve on what I am weak in. Saying is easy, implementing is difficult. I must persevere and strengthen my mentality in moving forward. I must learn from my mistake and emerge as a better me!

Who Is Chin Wynn?

Out of my most absurd mind, I randomly googled my own name to find out “who is Chin Wynn”. And so, I arrived at my own blog, out of a whole list of relevant Chin Wynn results which I am known for. I did not realised that I have not been blogging for the past 1.5 years, amid the fainting trend of youngsters expressing their emotions and thoughts in public blogs.

It is a whole new shocking experience, trying to read back my posts and trying to understand my perception and mindset back then, especially as a character who is submerged in the sea of the workforce. One thing is for sure – I was really unpredictable and my thoughts were as volatile as the foreign exchange rates, despite appearing steady and unfaltering on the surface. Yet, that is how I got through my life and achievements thus far, and I believe this shall persist with myself reaching even greater heights and feats moving forward.

(Oh bother, my language and writing skills really deteriorated compared to what I am reading from the posts below. Talking about being a writer of credit rating reports and author of a self-help book. I really need to catch up with the old Chin Wynn.)

Below is a video questioning who am I by my favourite artist, Will Pan. Please enjoy, if at all possible.